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so close to christmas and my heart is still sad as a tree still stands in my home with nothing under it ,,i know my kids are older teens and they might understand but last night seeing my daughter there looking at it as tears rolling down her eyes then her saying to me mom its ok i know bills come frist and that your trying everything but i still have u and her telling me good night and she loves me ,,,,its breaking my heart ,not to sure if i should take it down and gave up or what,,,its so hard on my family this years money is so so very tight ,,and my grandsons asking me what stanta going to bring them what iam i going to tell them ,,i so need prays for my family iam at the end of my rope

hi my name is lori i live in bakersfield calif a mother of 4 iam on a very very low income it only pays my rent and bills with nothing eles lefted , my husband lefted us in 2004 from him doing drugs and drinking and alot of abruse ,,iam very sick iam 41 and can not work due to heath prombles  alot to due with my heart might even have to have a paste maker put in ,,the to yougs kids that live with me never really had a christmas with the way thier dad was so iam on my kness asking who ever could help make this christmas a good one for my kids and me i would so ever thank you from the bottom of my heart i have a 17 year old son who been my rock holding me together and a 15 girl who is due to have a baby in feb 2009 she has been though so much to much for a girl her age , and also 3 grandsons that live with me thomas 4 jacob 2 and noah 8 days old and my 21 year old daughter i do not ask for anything for me just them it scare me to think with my heath being the way it is i might not make it to the next christmas but the lord only knows that  ,,,,if u founf someones needs greatert the ours plesae help them, ,,,, if not  and u decade to help us i so do thank you from the bottom of my heart u can reach me at playfulkittenn08@aol.com or even call me at 661-393-1163 again i thank u   your friend lori (laura  barnes     may god bless each and everyone of u and merry christmas